var my = function ()  {
  var real_heart = "xxxx"; 
  var fake_heart = "is_a_mirror"; 
  return { 
     heart: function () { return fake_heart;} 
   };
}();

>>> console.log( "my_heart " + my.heart() );

>my_heart_is_a_mirror

my god, i thought i was the only anne sexton fan in the world. she wrote one of my all time favorite poems.

serenamatthews:

Rare footage of Pulitzer Prize winning poet, Anne Sexton.. who, after repeated failed attempts, sadly took her own life by carbon monoxide poisoning in 1974.

In an interview over a year before her death, she explained she had written the first drafts of The Awful Rowing Toward God in twenty days with “two days out for despair and three days out in a mental hospital.”  She went on to say that she would not allow the poems to be published before her death.

To watch her recite poetry is like walking into a lonely old dream and wishing upon every star in the heavens for a chance to stay there.. just awhile longer.

leonard is my emotional father. ive never found in any other poet, or songwriter, or anyone who speaks a language i thought was my own. his understanding that loss is one of the most vital parts of life, even when you hate loss, keeps me sane. and when i feel near giving up for all the struggling he reminds me all of this is art, so long as you take the ash of whatever burns and use it.

in my head i know there’s no such thing as loss. it’s manmade. in my heart though, this is less clear.

I see you standing on the other side
I don’t know how the river got so wide
I loved you baby, way back when
And all the bridges are burning that we might have crossed
But I feel so close to everything that we lost
We’ll never have to lose it again

LEONARD COHEN [ MUSIC ]

the torrent rage
of your desire,
masks the weariness
of my intrusion.

the dark is never simple.

(2001-10-31) - i.m. ruzz